These are select entries from Maelle Kurimoto's journal that were written during the campaign.

Got a break day today with work, decided to keep this journal this person gave me, some strange person she was! kept rambling about killing these aberrants and throwing explosives at people. Suffice to say she was interesting, might keep going to that place if shes a regular. Place also had some pretty good stew and wine was wine, nothing to really note except I like wine.

Yumiko's planning on taking me out to this park around central Zwosta some day this week. For an old woman she sure likes doing a lot of activity; would've expected her to live a quiet life outside of the city compared to this? She still works hard as a doctor, guess all that work she's done as a kid really kept her fit.

That's all I can really think of for today I guess, might write more later if I feel like it.

Got an actual bit of feeling out of me for once. Thank you a lot Ms. Navia. (was her name?)

God fucking dammit.

I guess I'm writing in this again. So right as I get back into work turns out some fucking ass screwed up and sent a few tanks of insecticides into the river! gotta clear my entire schedule for that.

I'm so sorry Yumiko, park date will have to wait I guess. Whoever fucked up that badly is getting hit in the fucking face I swear.

Went back to that bar to unwind and that same woman was arguing with the bartender, called him a… what was it? oh right! “pig-fucker” for not letting her order another drink after what seemed like a lot. Heh, she was nice to me, I bought her a bottle of gin after she went outside as a gift for this book, she called me cool and left to somewhere I guess.

Whatever.

If this kind of bullshit keeps up I'm gonna have to write so much more.

So that's more work to deal with some eternally frozen body found in the Zone! can't do anything to help them, Halkin wasn't much use either, just another stuck up Rigasian official stuck in his ways, guess I'm going to the hunters guild to go ask for help researching this body then.

I'm gonna be going into the Zone actually, into Nuskom once more. I haven't been there in years, ever since that Bomb that shit it's I'll be okay.

Might write later, who knows.

What the fuck

I am

Murderer, that's all I am. Those They had families, Rigasian or not they were human and I fucking killed them.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Monster.

Aberrant.

Maybe I'm just a monster after all.

Everyone was the same, it was like that day never happened. those two, Clark and Gaia—

Gaia is a fucking kid, what was going through her head during that what

What the hell is wrong with me?

Calm yourself, Maelle. Turns out both of them are “special” in some way: Clark can freeze stuff with his hands; Gaia I'm not sure what she can do but she must be special in some way considering the gloves effect.

We stole that body out of the hands of Rigasia, I'm making sure its gonna be sent to Zhongguo.

Went back to that bar, need a fucking drink after everything. That Mariette was there again, seems she is a regular. Bought me some wine as a thanks and we talked for a bit, mentioned those two and the other day.

Don't know if it was the drink or what but I told her, told her all that happened. Remember her saying something and then my mind going fuzzy there but—

Don't know anymore, at least I'm writing this stuff down.

Boring as hell morning.

Convinced Iorena to send the body to Zhongguo, using my vacation days to cope with all the bull from before, kinda channeling my younger self and just having fun around the town.

Wonder how that lot is doing. God that Ivan was a fucking shithead I loved him, good ass friend! Ivan, Aleksey, Lotte— better family than my birth family.

Ivan the clear-headed, always made sure those kids never got in too much trouble. Him and Yumiko really were the most responsible if anything. Aleksey was a loud and energetic prick! despite him only being a kid he could ruin shit I swear.

Shame what happened to his family, Black-cap bastards. Kid didn't deserve to lose his parents like that. He kinda reminded me of this other Romani kid.

Lotte was a quiet girl, don't think I've ever heard her talk… but everyone understood her easily, her and her little hand words confused a lot of people but we thought it cute.

Yumiko was the grandmother of the group, she was old but wise. Didn't know much Vartsprak but we taught her, she picked it up pretty quickly compared to most I've met, guess Nihon has some good education on language then.

Mariette isn't in the bar today, been writing here this whole time and she hasn't shown up once. Wonder what shes up to.

They were serving a drink called the “special” today, tried it: just tasted like a normal cocktail from around here.

I might as well leave it off here then, don't wanna get drink on this thing.

That

Fucking turns out that Vituska prick I've been hearing about as of recent was connected to Clark and Gaia, he burnt down the fucking hunters guild with Ferret inside.

Saved his ass with Pyotr, still waiting in the ICU to see if him and Iorena are alright.

Found a note saying that Gaia was kidnapped, got almost run over by Iorena, debriefed her on the situation, she told me to go get help and she got people, I came after collecting Yumiko and Meiyo.

We came right in time: Gaia was running down the stairs while I walked in. for some reason a random voice in my head was saying “don't aura farm” while I was thinking about walking in slower; no idea who or what that was but I ran in instead and attacked that Vituska guy.

He's dead; no need to explain further.

We're getting a bounty for him. Iorena's been hurt, she got hit in the fucking face by his wind sword things, whatever magic he has.

We're getting money for us killing him. Might buy a dinner for everyone when I get it, don't know though.

Day 1

Turns out Clark might also be affected by the reality fuckery Rigasia did. Told me about this “Ringu” person he saw in a dream during his time in the Vituska-Motyl house of fun.

Yumiko did some testing and hallucinations are not one of the things that can be caused by the drugs they used on him, so most likely this Ringu girl is some sort of god? don't know, he'll be okay though. Thank god.

Day was nice, just napped and took a bit of a walk outside and got to this bench. It's really quiet this late at night. Wonder if anyone's awake.

Night then, journal

Day 2

Was walking around more: bought this denim jacket from a clothing store, also some new boots considering these are wearing out. fucking finally getting some calm.

Got some more stew and wine from the bar again. Mariette was there and just as talkative as before. I apologized for what happened last time, turns out she doesn't know what I was talking about, she was working late in her shop that night apparently. weird. We talked about whatever, told her about that lot… she seemed to enjoy hearing me talk about Aleksey, called me gay jokingly when talking about Yumiko…

Yeah, nice day I guess.

Day 3

Yumiko knows now, told her about those days. She reassured me, comforted me. I don't deserve her. Don't get why she loves me so much. I'm a monster. But at least I have her instead of nothing.

Holy shit I'm finally myself again full-time! This is amazing!

Okay, okay. Fucking zone was being fucky again! I'm finally not feeling apathetic all the time now!

May have broken down in Yumiko's arms but that's besides the point! been talkative and shit! Fucking hell I remind myself of Mariette hahah!

Anyhow! was coming down into the hotel lobby, some people down there, I'm led to the staging ground and I go help out around the place. A giant fucking dog just a bit bigger then a tank comes in and almost kills me and everyone around. Wonder what would have happened if I hadn't dodged.

I go into the car with Gaia and Clark because they were there and we crash into an elephant's foot and Gaia starts fucking talking to them?! No idea how, apparently she talks to squirrels also! weird as hell but also cool.

We go to the center of the Zone and me and Gaia become ambassadors for a time until some masked fuck tries “helping” us but then a tank rolls in! T medic gets hit really hard by the tank, I start saving her. She then sees the glove that Clark has and pulls me down. Clark then freezes the tank!

We escape through the portal but then Rigasia sends in a fucking bomber plane!

Okay.

Calm down Maelle, genuinely.

We then wake up in this savanna somewhere in Africa. I see there's three dead bodies: Antonio Vargas, Zoe Curie, and Steve. No idea about the last one's name. Body is mangled, and so is the nametag. That poor lot.

Gaia started breaking down. I hugged her as tight as I could, she just cried harder. Clark told me to bring her over to Derek and I did, thankfully Clark buried the bodies for us after. He's a good man!

We went over to this fort after all of that. I was able to learn some of the language these people speak!

Then tonight—

FUCK RIGASIA I SWEAR THAT POOR WOMAN.

Calm down; pretty sure both of them are still awake, don't want them hearing me cry. Gotta get back in that motherly role again… be strong.

This Anagusi woman got stuck in time. She got somehow saved by this big strong woman named Ariyadna which I ###### ##### ## ##### ##### ## like holy ##### ##### ## ##### ##### ## I WA###### ####### ### ### ####.

Then after all that we got some time to ask questions to Derek. Turns out the kesizmensis kesizmans known about human aberrants. They call us “eternity-touched”. I guess It's better then aberrant that's for sure though, but why would I be allowed a term like that? I'm a monster anyway. I better accept that for once.

Goddamn it.

Today was absolutely fucked not good in the slightest, everything is still a bit fuzzy after drinking like that. dont exactly know what caused the binge but- maybe I'm a bit better, who knows at this point.

From my memory of this morning, I just felt completely tired, couldn't think clearly because of that Ariyadna woman- went and hid after eating to go think some things out, I'd have to accept that fact sometime and, I guess that time is now.

I'm not a woman, I'm different. I'm not a man, I'm just- me? I guess that's how I could phrase that, I'm Kurimoto Maelle, all I've really heard people refer to people like me as is “Deviant”, “Faggot”, “Whore”, and- other (much worse) cases of libel. So, in turn I dont exactly understand what I could call myself, I'm just Maelle.

Anyhow, after that morning, I did ask initially to see about how Clark and Gaia would react towards that fact, after what happened earlier suffice to say Clark doesn't see me as different for this, I'm glad for that. Gaia though, I'm worried about how she'll react towards me, she seemed- I'm not too sure, during the initial ask I feel as if she dismissed that question before, but then when i openly came out about that- I feel like she didn't.. understand? That or was dismissing it once more.

Now, finally remembering what happened after going into that chamber, I- I wish that I didn't remember. Everything felt heavy, I wanted to scream in that very moment and I did. I caused a scene that made me pound an entire thing of beer in one shot, goddamn idiot, I'm not supposed to act so immature about this, I'm 34, why am I acting like such a damn baby about being called a slave? Idiot.

What a day, but, not too bad! everything seemed to turn out well in the end.

Been exploring the city for the past few weeks, Kesizma's taking their sweet time making that portal, learnt some new words in.. I'm pretty sure the language here is Mande? From what i can tell this country is Mali, specifically the Malian Empire, heard a bit of it from some drunk, horny, frat guys trying to impress me “history majors” back in university.

Rigasia's starting its invasion of Kesizma, before we left there was news of them attacking an army a kilometer away or so, thought to help with the strategizing against them.. hopefully these people wont get hurt in this war, they've been very nice these past few weeks! so, good luck to Kesizma and Mali!

Speaking of Rigasia; we have a Rigasian on board with us for the time being now! Schidera is his name, some corporal who had his entire platoon destroyed from a group of eternity-touched crabs, I was the one who saved him initally. Claire (woman Clark haha) Clark thankfully got the tourniquet on him before he could bleed out, thanks a lot, Clark!

Took a nap for an hour after the whole debacle with poor Schidera, woke up to both Clark and Mauto falling out of Derek and their horse respectively! Goddamn What insanity I was awoken with! We went to go get Derek some medication for his sickness but.. I dont exactly think he'll do well tonight, that woman did have a point with the meds but, eh, i dont know

Finished cleaning up and whatnot about an hour ago.. Gaia and Clark have been asleep for the last ten minutes so I guess I'll finish up my entry for tonight, hope to see Yumiko and everyone soon!

[FEW HOURS LATER]

scratch good end, gaia, head exploded. gaia crying, fucking clark isnt moving.. hes not doing anything. what the fuck was that? how did vituska live? clark was covered in his fucking guts.

gaia wont stop crying

clark isnt responding

im managing but i feel like im on the verge of tears, gods help us.

By the gods, finally, a good day.

So! We were broken out of prison by a couple of revolutionaries going against the Empire's rule this morning, after all of what happened a few days ago. Seems the people are finally going against their oppressor in this timeline.. hopefully everything turns out well when they win!

And one of those revolutionaries, one Fulan Ibn Fulan, seems to understand Gotthos and Vartsprak pretty well. He came with us while looking for our weapons (thank you Derek for your sense of smell). Something was happening regarding Mauto and Clark, wasn't focusing too hard on the conversation except interjecting on certain occasions, seems Mauto was a bit anxious about the other night and all that's been happening recently.

Fulan is.. Fulan is an interesting character, to say the least. He's the same as me in regards to attraction, he likes the same sex and doesn't seem to mind other people in regards to how they identify, I like him, he was nice.

He brought us over to the revolutions leader, Djama, he seems like a smart man, no wonder he's the leader of the revolt!

Got some time to talk to Fulan a bit after it all, turns out he was able to find a bottle of wine also! I missed this taste so much, felt nice to get a drink in while talking about everything. We mainly discussed our lives and works we have done (considering the fact we're both scientists). Fulan seems to be against Rigasia for the most part so I feel like its okay to trust him.

अन्त्यः त्वां सर्वशून्ये मिलितः भविष्यति, त्वां सर्वान् च प्रियं च भक्षयन् दैवेन कथितम्।

Seems I've fallen asleep at my desk, somehow? Odd, this hasn't happened since I was working on the Leiphof Paper. Anyhow; I had a dream during it, I was somewhere in.. I'm not sure if it was Nihon or Zhongguo, it had a similar appearance to an area around them (possibly Kansai?). Everything started to fade apart after I saw a shadow in the ground, it was.. it felt like it consumed everything it saw like a vaccume, nothing could escape its pull until everything was gone except me and a small light. The light comforted me, everything was cold but I felt a warm comfort throughout my body even if everything was gone, the light was there. I soon died of either starvation or a crushing force and the dream had ended

The hell happened today? Fucking tired my god.

Oh, now I remember. Aberrants raided the fort today, we defended the place fine and with Mauto we were able to get everyone inside before they actually got into the place. I kept casualties to a minimum when attacking the ones inside the fort considering they can fucking explode, seemed like Clark analyzed them after the battle ended.

Speaking of Clark; I think they're like me. they don't seem to identify with the identity they were assigned throughout their life, specifically them being a man. I talked to them about it after the battle and they seem to be in denial as well, apparently thinks they're being “corrupted” somehow but, I don't trust that assumption as the real reason to whats happening: Whatever their biology is about, they're a woman and are scared to embrace who they are and some magical biology bullshit something related to their gift is influencing this. Also Kitsune seem to be real and Clark is one of them, even becoming a cute woman like in the stories Yumiko told.

After the whole kerfuffle with the hot-headed lizards, Djama (who originally blamed #### Ariyadna) wanted to know who caused the wall to freeze up. I went with Clark to help explain it, thus leading to an argument against Rigasia with Djama and how he seems to be in support of their government. Everyone split up after it got heated.

Ariyadna, Seems a child version (smalliyadna?) of her lives in this area, she directly helped me during the fight and stopped me from getting trampled by a horse. I don't like that man with her, from what she said he's her.. husband.. fucking disgusting. I want to try saving Ariyadna from that man and give her a better life, I don't want her to suffer.

Ugh, and now the fun part of today. Rigasian tanks came into the fort after the lizard attack, they needed to make a pit stop after driving for what looks like awhile. Got some information out of the captain about the situation in our timeline; Valtshora is rebelling against Rigasia! From what I can tell they aren't Blackcaps considering Zhongguo is giving them support, I'll make a note to try and help when we get back to Valtshora.

Another thing. Gaia, I'm worried about her. She was really interested in the GAT, so.. much that it resulted in her sneaking out to break inside it. She looked at it with the glove and passed out earlier, she still hasn't woken up even now. I'm waiting here with Clark for her to do that but.. Like I've said; I'm worried for her.